The last day in Iowa

It is 12/05/2012, 9:57pm the night before we fly to Saudi Arabia, the last days here or day here in Iowa was honestly really bitter sweet.

Tomorrow will defiantly be the emotional day for me, 1. I am leaving my family all behind and I will miss them all well some of them very much! 2. America is the only place I have ever lived even though I have traveled state to state while living here and only visiting 2 countries Canada and Mexico Canada I really don't count as a different country because its so much like America and as for Mexico well I went there 20 something years ago  and both of these countries are completely opposite of Saudi Arabia different life style, culture, religion I'm used to the religion part been Muslim for 10 years now Alhumdullilah, but never have lived in a Muslim country. Since I have been Muslim I have been fascinated with Saudi Arabia the people, culture, lifestyle now that I'm married into it sometimes I ask myself what the heck was I thinking...but the day that I have been waiting for since then is finally here....

everything has been really hectic packing bags, weighing bags, taking things out of the bags to get them to weigh the right weight to be able to fly "ugh" talk about the back pain I wish I could visit my chiropractor one last time because I know it will be a long time until I get a proper adjustment...Today we visited our favorite restaurant "Red Robin" that we have been to so many times we have grown pretty fawn of the staff that work there for there excellent service the manager who is a very kind person he would always bring the kids little mandarin oranges well tonight  was bitter sweet the manager paid for our meal making it a bittersweet visit but they got a good tip in return but we will stay in touch insha'allah and send a post card.

I will really miss my family especially my mom I love her very much and it breaks my heart that she cries over me but don't worry mom, I will be fine! I know that some of my family hope I do not like it there so I come back but who knows Insha'allah (If God Willing) maybe I will love it, maybe I hate it but ether way I think its always nice to hope the best for someone even though we don't like there choices.... I know my family loves me and I love them all very much too yes even the ones that have completely ignored me calling it "tough love" no matter what I will love them all and hope insha'allah they will at least be happy for me for the fact that I am happy and living my life maybe not the way they planned but happy because for once in my life I am happy....

My last words before I head to bed for the night to friends or family struggling with life  I know some of you wonder what your purpose you have in life or think you don't have anything going for you.... well everyone has a purpose in life that is why God put you here and God will test the ones that he loves.... 

So my words of advice and inspirational input: 

"Find something you love so much that you have passion for and dream about once you find that hold on to it and run with it and keep going until you reach your finally destination in life in where you want to be in life, and do not worry what others will say or think there will always be people around you who are jealous because they can't or don't have the courage to go for what they want so be happy for yourself you deserve it and don't worry what others say or think if it makes you happy and makes you feel good about yourself and mostly important God would be happy with you then you have found your place then after that you live your life for God, because without out God in the center of everything nothing is possible Prayer is key and just because God does not give you what you want just remember God has another plan to get you where you need to be"....