reality setting in?

Within a month we are going to Saudi Arabia so we are now trying to sell everything we own, and so far its going well sold the kids's beds insha'allah selling the living room and dinning room set I'm excited but at the same time thinking everything is moving so fast and I am so overwhelmed with happiness that nervousness, I feel like its making me crazy in a way I just want everything to get sold we buy the things we need then go I just want to be able to relax insha'allah. 

I think once I arrive to KSA that relaxing might be out of the question when I arrive so I hope that I will be able to adapt to it all without crashing in front of everyone but hopefully I will be able to sleep well on the crazy 15 to 30 hour flight and hopefully everyone will be understanding that I just got done flying and I need my rest but we will see but Insha'allah everything goes quickly so we can get going and start getting settled and start living insha'allah, I know this is such a short blog post but I had to post something to keep everyone updated I just been extremely busy and so exhausted that I haven't been even able to breath lol.

so I have decided to not go to Ohio which is where my family are I want to see everyone but at the same time I do not want to face a bunch of critisizm of how much of a mistake I'm making or they will never see me again if I knew I was gonna go and have a good time and leave on a positive note then yes I would be more then happy to go, I love my mom and sisters I will miss them dearly but I feel like they are slowly starting to be like the rest of my family by kind of putting me out on a limb only reaching to me when they want . 

I just wish things where different with my family that they would except me for who I am I'm not asking them to convert to Islam but just have an open mind share our views learn from each other like a normal civilized human being would and not treat me as if I come from a different planet, I am my own person and have my own views and opinions and likes and agreements and disagreements and it is possible to live among-st each other and get along people do it all the time I think if my family where more welcoming me as I am then maybe I would be more willing to stay here in America but until then I really have no purpose here I need to be among my own people "Muslims" where we can share the same views and I can live among the beautiful Saudi people I <3 so much that has welcomed me and treated me as if I was one of there own....